Summer 2011

So far I'm enjoying my summer! My Holy week was great. I was able to relax, spend time with friends and with my Ayson family. I had fun in Potipot Island with my friends. It's nice to go out with my girl friends. I had a blast!We went swimming, sun bathing, bon fire, road trip, chocolate shopping etc. I looove the fact that at long last, i was able to wear my favorite swimsuit!

Spending my Holy Week with Ayson Clan was the best! God knew I needed to feel loved. My Ayson family never fails to make me smile. With them, I know i can be myself. I know my happiness is their happiness. I know they truly love me and my siblings. wow I missed being with FAMILY. Family is a group of people that loves you no matter what. They are the ones who are sincere and unconditionally caring. I love being with them! I saw my grandma. She's been sick and she loss a lot of weight. She's very forgetful and seeing her like that breaks my heart. I love her so much. And i'm begging that God will heal her because I want my mom to see her for Christmas.

Anyway, I'm back to reality. i can say I'm rejuvenated. My soul was reborn. I've been missing my students and i'm hoping to see them pretty soon.I love you Lord!We will always remember what Jesus has done for us. Hugs and kisses everyone!enjoy the rest of summer!

Making the best out of it!

These following days had been pretty stressful for me. I'm thinking about a lot of things. Things that made me cry. In life, nothing is perfect but it doesn't mean we shouldn't try to be happy and make the best out of it! As of now, that is what I'm doing. I'm trying my best to be optimistic. I know bad things happen because good things are waiting for me. I know God loves me and my faith in him will never fade. I love you Papa God!

Keeping my Promise!

I promised my students I'll update and I'm keeping my promise. Anyway, I'm really sleepy so I'm gonna make this quick!Tomorrow is TGIF!Favorite day of my students!I'm so eager to meet them tomorrow so we can draw, learn and play board games!I'm also going to MOA's 3-day say tom!Hope I'll discover great finds! I'll keep you posted!Smooch!

A Tribute to the Greatest Heroine Corrie Ten Boom

I wasn't able to go to work today because I'm not feeling well. And so I continued reading "The Hiding Place". I've never read a book that made me cry the way I did for The Hiding Place. Often, I find myself closing the book and crying very hard. Touching and inspiring the book is superb. All along I thought the best book of all time is Harry Potter, but I was wrong. I've read hundreds of books but nothing could compare to the Hiding Place. I loved every word and I can't help turning the pages. The story is about Corrie Ten Boom and her family. They lived during the holocaust. It was a nightmare in history. Yet, a simple family of watchmakers showed everyone what it means to love God.

I often say it's hard to be good in a world of evil. And I kept on weeping because Corrie definitely saw what evil means and yet she stayed faithful to God. Corrie and her sister are like angels on Earth. They saw goodness even to the meanest people. I hope I can live like them. Focusing on what is good and thanking God even for the horrible circumstances. The story shows how these horrible circumstances can actually become blessings in disguise. I was crying because I can feel Corrie's pain. I was crying because I was so touched.

I keep on complaining about all the things that went wrong in my life. But after reading Corrie's story, my heart was crushed. I found myself praying and asking God for forgiveness. Forgiveness for all the times I complained and whined. Corrie is right. There are no "ifs" in God's Kingdom. His timing is always perfect.

Lord thank for the opportunity of encountering a very inspiring woman. Thank you Corrie for touching my life. I loss my dad, friend and grandma but you loss almost everything. You loss your first love, your father, sister and even your freedom. Eventhough life has given you so much pain, you still worshiped God with all your heart. I know one day I will meet you in heaven. Yes, I will definitely look for you. It will be a pleasure to meet you even in the after life.

I hope people all over the world can read your story. They will be moved in ways they cannot imagine.

To the woman who found God even in the darkest hour, Thank you Corrie!

Good things, bad things

Wow I haven't written for ages. Ok that's an exaggeration! Alot of things happened to me this week. Lets see, good things because I just heard the sweetest words and this time the words are not from my boyfriend or family, they were from my students. That was really sweet of them. At least I know were on the right track.

Bad things? Oh well me and my best friend were talking a while a go and she told me she will permanently live there in US. She will have a vacation here on October but aside from that, she's leaving Philippines for good. I'm already missing her and the thought of her permanently leaving me here is just too painful. But I know God has better plans. I'm sure of it! For now, I'm just looking at the brighter things in life.

Life is too short. Ignore the drama but make the best out of it!

I think I need a make over!

To do a make over or not?

Well I'm planning to support a new look. hmmm...will this hairstyle look good on me?not sure!But I already found a nice salon/ Tony and jackey definitely!It's a Korean salon. Thus, I'm expecting they are good with shag edges!hmmm....Hope this will look good on me!

To the people I love and lost...

To my Dad, my friend Alet and to my grandmother Inang.

First, I want all of you to know how much I love you. I love you more than words can express. And I realized it even more when you guys left me. It was a difficult moment in my life when I lost you guys. I cried and cried and cried but still the pain inside me never left. It was inside me eating me up slowly and painfully. Not a day passed that I did not miss you. Often I find myself looking at nothing and reminiscing. Thinking of the things that could have been. Thinking of the possibilities if you were still with me. There were moments that I was missing you so bad I do not know what to do. Thus, I wrote my thoughts to my journal. There I expressed everything I could have and should have said, all my regrets and remorse. But I can never take back the time. I could never ask God to bring you guys back here with me.

I know and believe that everything happen for a reason. And i dare not question God's decisions. I know right now all of you are happy with our Heavenly Father. Much much happier than you'll ever be if you were still with me. I just want all of you to know that now, I have accepted the fact that you guys are happier now. That today I truly learned how to let go. To let go of my regrets and feelings that might have been holding you guys back. Please hear me, you can totally be happy there knowing that I am happy for you.

No matter where I go, you will always be part of me. That thought is enough for me to let go and just move forward. I promise to do the best out of my life. I know that is what you want for me. Thank you for being part of my life. For showing me what love and friendship truly means. You guys helped me in a lot of ways. Thank you for teaching me how to be strong and the importance of being close to God. From the bottom of my heart, thank you! And yes, until we meet again!

Dad, Alet and Inang: "I'll see you at the crossroads"

I also dedicate this message to those who also lost their loved ones. It is now time to let go and accept the fact that they are gone. They will rest in peace only if they know all of us are happy for them and that is by letting go. If we truly love them, we should learn how to let go and to be happy for them. Now, they are happy and at peace.

Let us all keep on moving forward and trudging this road called life...